My work in Physics

[Kenneth 'pawl' Collins]

Since it's obvious that I've, once again, 'crossed-the-line', I might
as well continue.

There's a thing I want folks to understand with respect to why I'm
doing what I'm doing.

It's not with hope on my own behalf, although I'll hope 'til Life
goes out of me that folks in-Science will do Science.

It's nearly two decades since I wrote a letter to a Journalist
beginning with "Welcome to my scientific-suicide"... It wasn't
anything 'melodramatic'. It was just that I understood the
Consequences of what I was going to do in that letter, and in my
endeavors thereafter.

So, you see? It's been a long 'time' since I've hoped for myself.

Then, what gives?

It's that the Same-Stuff of how folks've 'moved away from' my efforts
to reach them with NDT's understanding meets the efforts of the Kid
in this or that ghetto, around the world, when she or he endeavors to
better her or his circumstances.

All the 'well-ensconced' folks're just 'blind' to the Child's
endeavors to escape his or her tragedy. Most often, such takes the
form of a thoughtless 'brushing-aside' which the 'brusher-asider'
experiences in a self-'fulfilling' way.

It's why 'america' so 'looks down its nose' at those who exist within
cultures that it deems to be 'backward'. I mean, instead of engaging
in genuine teaching interaction, 'america' just gives those people,
within cultures that it obviously knows are less-well-off than is the
case in 'america', short shrift, and 'walks away' feeling
self-'fulfilled'.

You know?

But it's the Child in the gheto, subject to such relentless,
'blindly'-automated beating-down, who I carry in my 'heart', and on
whose behalf, even here in this msg, I Choose to act.

It's, perhaps, a Quixotic endeavor - I mean, after all, I do See the
way billion-dollar corporations so routinely use me as 'cannon
fodder', 'winking' to their associates, 'thinking' that I don't see.
But I do.

I also wrote about all that to a Journalist. I've written about it
here in b.n ans sci.physics, for that matter - when I discussed stuff
like long-term periodicities, and how to follow Truth's one 'map'. I
was actively trying to teach some folks how what they think is
'impossible' is flat-out a trivial exercise in long-term
cross-correlation.

To me, the underlying stuff only 'stokes the fire', if not with hope
on my own behalf, then with hope on behalf of the Kid in this or that
ghetto. It's what enables me to continue, even when folks 'move away
from' - knowing that, I, at least, will not 'move away from' hope on
behalf of that Child who folks deem 'unworthy' of their notice.

Anyway, that's what I'm doing. It's a Gen-u-ine Conspiracy - between
me and that Child, unknown to the Child - I stand in folks' faces on
her and his behalf - gaining sustinence in just knowing that I am one
who will not 'move away from' the Child.

The rest derives in the way I just tend to explore everything - I
cannot seem to accept the results of my explorations of
'governmental' calousness, or with respect to folks in Science
'moving away from' doing Science, or with respect to folks in
Journalism 'moving away from' that child, or with respect to folks in
Business preying upon that Child - so I continue such exploration,
wanting to come upon some evidence that all of my decades of
data-collection are wrong.

I Love 'you' in that way.

I want 'you' to not Fail that Child.

You know?

K. P. Collins

Kenneth 'pawl' Collins wrote in message ...
|You know?
|
|It's 'hilarious'... I understand that folks are 'put-off' because
|they experience what I'm doing, and what I've done so many times
over
|the years, as 'preaching' - but that's not it. I'm addressing the
|fact that fully-substantiated Science, like NDT, can be 'swept under
|the rug' by this 'blindly'-automated 'secret' that folks carry
around
|with them in their 'hearts'.
|
|In the case of NDT's understanding is takes the form of folks
|'realizing' that, if they allow NDT's understanding to come forward,
|elements of their day-to-day approaches to 'living' will be
"rendered
|useless" [AoK, Ap8].
|
|And folks 'blindly' and automatically 'decide' to 'move away from'
|such "rendering useless".
|
|What's [sadly] 'hilarious is that the stuff with respect to which
|"rendering useless" is being resisted is the Same-Stuff that Ravages
|Humanity, and is, in Truth, worthy of =nothing= other than being
|"rendered useless".
|
|But folks 'choose' to cling to it rather than simply allow an
|sbstraction like NDT's stuff to see the light of day.
|
|But I'm not 'preaching', and I'm not 'dictating morality' - all I'm
|doing is saying here is some verified Science.
|
|It's Science just like any other Science.
|
|Yet, I've spent all these years in online Science 'places' where
|folks who profess to Honor Science hang-out, and even in such
Science
|'places', folks 'move away from' just treating NDT's stuff in any
way
|resembling how they'd treat any other Science.
|
|Can you see what's fallen to me to address, right in the light of
|day?
|
|It's the stuff which 'defeats' Humanity's hopes and dreams - the
|stuff that 'closes the door' to the future.
|
|I address it in 'your' presence be-cause I Love you in that way -
|be-cause I hope for you - be-cause I hope for your Children.
|
|It'd be the worst thing I could do not to express my Belief that
|'you' are Capable of lifting yourselves up out of the morass that
the
|'blind'-automation inflicts upon Humanity.
|
|I never do worst things.
|
|I just do what needs to be done, albeit, without much 'style'.
|
|Still, if 'you' care to know, it hurts to do it - I mean, think
about
|it - here I am laying all of the best stuff I can do at your feet -
|as a gift - and the 'measure' of it's worth to folks is folks'
|silence?
|
|Think about it.
|
|Think about knowing the unavoidable necessity of it.
|
|Think about the foreknowledge with respect to what'll transpire, but
|having to do it, anyway.
|
|Measure it all that way.
|
|And try to see the Love that will do such on your behalf, rather
than
|abandoning you, and yours, to yet more of the 'blindly'-automated
|Ravaging.
|
|You know?
|
|ken
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|Kenneth 'pawl' Collins wrote in message ...
||It gives me Sorrow to have to do stuff like this [what's quoted,
||below, from my prior post], but it just needs to be done because
||folks've been so sommonly 'mistreating' one another for so long
over
||the course of Human History, that all that's inherent had become so
||familiar to folks that folks were 'blind' to it - folks couldn't
||experience its 'negativity' consciously.
||
||It's the biggest part of what constitutes 'the beast'.
||
||It's fallen to me to 'lift the vail' with respect to such.
||
||If anyone 'wonders', it's a Sorrow to have to do it.
||
||But I'm hoping folks can See the Love in it.
||
||The 'blindly'-automated way in which it all unfolds, which includes
||stuff alike 2001-09-11, and the inability to interact in instances
||such as are unfolding with respect to Iraq and North Korea, the
||animosities between Protestants and Catholics in Northern Ireland,
||the merciless stand-off between the Palestinians and Israelis, and,
||all over the place during 'everyday' interactive dynamics, Ravages
||Humanity, sucking what could be right out of the future, abandoning
||the Children to experiencing more of the same Ravaging stuff.
||
||Conciousness =needs= to be raised with respect to such..
||
||It's =hard= to do it, but it's fallen to me to do it, and I don't
||'move away from' doing what needs to be done [even when it's
||'groaner' stuff because I understand the short-term Consequences.
||
||But I do hope that there're some who are getting-it.
||
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||Kenneth 'pawl' Collins wrote in message ...
|||But, "wait a minute', 'you' say. "If it's as you claim, and you do
|||what you say you do as a matter of your own choice, then what are
|||you whining about?"
|||
|||I'm 'whining' about the way 'professionals', unwilling to,
|||themselves, pay the price, that dragging stuff in out of the
|||'jungle' where the answers live, requires of one, then taking the
|||work of one who has paid the price, and withholding the real gist
|||of it from the Children and their Parents.
|||
|||I'm talking about the Censorship that, even now, will not allow me
|||to freely discuss my work in certain online Physics places.
|||
|||I'm talking about my papers being turned around by clerks in the
|||mailrooms without ever having been read because I don't have some
|||fancy address.
|||
|||I'm talking about the awesome imbalance of the billions being
|||spent to attack Iraq when all that's necessary is to promulgate
|||NDT's understanding.
|||
|||I'm talking about having reached out thousands and thousands of
|||'times' - in person, over the telephone, in the mail, on the
|||internet, without ever having been given any "OK, let's work this
|||through" consideration.
|||
|||I'm talking about the work I've done having been co-opted in the
|||name of weapons systems development, in the name of 'profits', in
|||the name of all manner of self-seeking augmentation of
|||'professionsls' personal welfares.
|||
|||I'm talking about the corruption amongst the 'authorities' from
|||whom I've sought remedial action, all the way from this of that
|||City, up to the highest 'levels' of 'government'.
|||
|||I'm talking about all the lying, cheating and stealing I've
|||witnessed.
|||
|||I'm talking about the Fraud I've witnessed.
|||
|||I'm talking about the ramifications of all of this with respect to
|||folks' welfares.
|||
|||I'm talking about the Survival of Humanity.
|||
|||You know?
|||
|||I'm in this work by Choice, that's right.
|||
|||But, if anyone 'thinks' I'm in it because I'm just wanting to
|||'live' in the midst of the attendant 'firestorm', they need to see
|||a Psychiatrist.
|||
|||I'm not in it because I can't think of anything I'd rather do, or
|||anything like that.
|||
|||I just Saw that this stuff =needed= doing. Went to grad school and
|||was told, repeatedly, to "drop it", and so I had to get out of
|||there so I could just do what needed to be done.
|||
|||Forgive me, please. I do understand that folks didn't understand.
|||
|||But am I "supposed to" leave it that way?
|||
|||Jus let 'the beast' wreak its havoc?
|||
|||And remain a Man?
|||
|||Doesn't compute, does it?
|||
|||Nope.
|||
|||Anyway, I 'chose' to do the work... like Lincoln 'chose' to fight
|||the Civil War.
|||
|||The Choice was in not 'moving away from' that which needed to be
|||done.
|||
|||Neither Lincoln, nor I, would've been lacking for more pleasurable
|||stuff to Live-out, had the needs not been, Terribly, upon us.
|||
|||The other day [01, Jan.] was the Anniversary of Lincoln's signing
|||of the Emancipation Proclamation.
|||
|||Would that the larger Emancipation, the kind born in understanding
|||of how nervous systems process information, had been 'signed' in
|||folks' 'hearts'.
|||
|||Would that it weren't the case that those 'in control' were
|||Chosing Wrongly with respect to the rest of Humanity.
|||
|||You know?
|||
|||It's been 'enlightening'.
|||
|||There's something =really= Broken in America if folks 'choose' to
|||remain under the Ravaging Dictates of Abstract Ignorance.
|||
|||What's the problem?
|||
|||What has inflicted all of this 'fear' of Truth upon America?
|||
|||Truth is, folks were in the grasp of 'the beast', Abstract
|||Ignorance.
|||
|||Truth is that, now, folks no longer need to Suffer such.
|||
|||Yet, folks 'choose' to Suffer such?
|||
|||If that's the case, then somebody help me find employment, because
|||my work's unfinished, and I've got to find a way to Finish-it.
|||
|||K. P. Collins
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|||Kenneth 'pawl' Collins wrote in message
|||<2xcR9.92636$hK4.7512405 at bgtnsc05-news.ops.worldnet.att.net>...
||||Kenneth 'pawl' Collins wrote in message ...
|||||[...]
||||"If I'd not reached-out to Love, in the ensuing interval, the
||||new-new stuff wouldn't've gained sway [I'd've 'fought' to 'hold
||||the line', and I'd've 'succeeded', 'cause I'm fierce in thet
|||way."
|||||[...]
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||||"fierce"
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||||like I said, I have to "gear-down".
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||||I don't want to 'frighten' folks.
||||
||||a more-easily-comprehended word is "stubborn".
||||
||||When I 'go-for-it', doing so requires a putting-aside of
||||everything else, until the problem is resolved.
||||
||||It's a deliberately 'merciless' condition in which to exist
||||[that's also explained in AoK] in which I focus TD E/I with
||||respect to the problem I'm working on [don't try it unless you
||||understand NDT well], and the magnitude of 'will' that arises
||||within is commensurate with all the "needs" that're being
||||'put-aside' in order to leave nothing other than the problem's
||||resolution. It gets 'intense', but if folks look back to =long=
||||former msgs, they'll see that the first requirement of
||||'going-for-it' is to spare others the 'intensity'... so,
||||outwardly, all anyone sees is 'stubbornness' [except, as folks've
||||witnessed, when I'm 'attacked' in the misdt of so 'giving-all'
||||:-]
||||
||||Try to understand - it's for the Children, and nothing is "too
||||much" for them - so I don't hold anything 'in-reserve'. I Give
||||even what Life depends upon, in order to align TD E/I against the
||||problem's stuff. It's 'intense', as it has to be, 'cause the
||||problems are not, at least at the outset, trivial/ So I put on
||||'solitude'. As I've discussed in long-former msgs, early-on, the
||||'intensity' caught me unprepared. All I could see, back then, was
||||how much I wanted this or that for the Children [for everyone,
||||and, yes, for myself], so the problem had to be solved. Bbut,
|||back
||||then, the 'solitude' was externally-imposed, because, when I'd be
||||working on a problem, that'd reflect in my behavior in a way that
||||others interpreted as 'aloofness', and they'd 'take offense' and,
||||react, often in 'cruel' ways - and before I got it all sorted
|||out,
||||I'd reciprocate by 'takeing offense' at being subjected to such
||||treatment, because, there I was giving myself over to working to
||||do something good, and the 'cruel' reactions seemed overly
|||unjust.
||||But, in 'time', I came to understand that folks didn't
|||understand,
||||and that their reactions were 'blindly'-automated. Then, the
||||'solitude' became deliberate, internally-imposed stuff - Loving
||||folks in the only way I could, by 'sparing' them the experience
|||of
||||my problem-solving 'aloofness' with which they 'took-offense'.
||||
||||Anyway, I'd like folks to understand, but don't want to
|||'frighten'
||||folks.
||||
||||Other, to me, correlated, matter:
||||
||||"Director Quits Los Alamos Under Fire", By KENNETH CHANG
||||
||||http://www.nytimes.com/2003/01/03/national/03ALAM.html
||||
||||[all the "L" to the end of the URL - my newsreader routinely
||||'truncates' it]
||||
||||[© 2003 by The New York Times.]
||||
||||I'm impoverished for wanting to do-Science on behalf of the
||||Children, yet there's all this waste?
||||
||||Why does a guy like me have to 'worry' about eating?
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||||Doesn't compute, does it?
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||||Nope.
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