Until a few years ago I used to suffer from very strong depression and
anxiety. I was also an alcoholic and going through very serious problems
concerning my relations with other people. Then all of a sudden it
changed. I stopped drinking, became much more relaxed and started
enjoying the company of others. Now I'm probably the most stable person
I know, and on the face there seem to be no problems. Often other people
come to me asking me to help them sort out their own problems, because
it seems to them I'm so stable and helpful. This is all very nice...
However...
I have recently started to think that there may have been a brain
lesion behind this change. A few weeks before the change I hit my head
kind of hard, on the top towards the front. Now I have read that some
patients with frontal lobes lesions start losing their inhibitions and
often display a "don't care" attitude. Nowadays I often find it hard to
attach any real importance to things. Is it because I feel that
whatever happens, things will not be as bad as they were before, or is
it because I suffered a frontal lobe lesion? I have also become much
more disinhibited with other people. I used to be very shy, now I often
say things which shock people, even strangers, and I just think it's
funny. I don't like drinking alcohol any more, before it used to be a
necessity.
I also find it harder to put different concepts together into a single
"whole" when I'm thinking.
What do you think?
Paolo
