for my part, it should be obvious to all that, having reached the realization
that it was 'time' to act, i did so, without holding anything in reserve.
i did so only to enable the "door's" staying open.
there's nothing in the action i took, given the action, that can come to me.
i hope, one day, to discover that it's the case that Innocents were being
deliberately misled, rather than willfully co-operating.
but, when the stakes for Humanity are so exceedingly-high, one cannot 'guess'.
so i took the action that will prevent the further unfolding of the assault on
Truth i'd been, mostly-patiently, monitoring for the better part of the last
decade.
i did so in order to purchase 'time' on behalf of folks of Good Will.
because of what i had to do, and because of what i understand well with respect
to the relatively-small number of coup-folks, i expect it's become the case
that i am 'finished'.
it's why i began the msg with the 'quote' from _The Iron Giant_, which, BTW,
should've been:
"You stay. I go. No following." (went to see the flick again, today.)
other thing:
not wanting to waste what i've got left, i've just-about decided that i'm going
to move on to work on another problem that's outlined in _Microbes and
Malignance_, J. Parsonnet, Ed., Oxford U. Press, NY, 1999, ISBN 0-19-510401-3.
I came across reference to this book while reading in the 21May99 issue of
_Science_ yesterday... seems an interesting problem. don't know when i'll be
able to afford to purchase the book ($79.95, which i currently can't spare),
but when i do, i'll be reading the thing, and correlated refs, with mind's eye
on gaining insight into micronutrient-uptake blocking. the idea, which i
discussed long ago in another online place, stems from my experience as a
'smoker'. i've periodically 'quit' for up to 14 months to give my body some 'R
& R'. during these periods, i gained weight (as is customary when one 'quits'
smoking). i analyzed this and concluded that the weight gain was not due to a
'release' from smoking-induced 'appetite suppression', but that the weight was
gained as a function of my body's 'striving' to regain its micronutrient
'balance'.
that is, my working hypothesis is that 'smoking' blocked the uptake of specific
micronutrients, and the weight gain occurs be-cause the micronutrients are only
available in foodstuffs in trace amounts... so one has to eat a lot to restore
the micronutrient balance, bit-trace by bit-trace... hence the weight gain
(which, in my observations of other folks who've quit smoking endures for ~3
years, and then subsides... and which, within my working hypothesis, means that
it takes about 3 years' worth of 'pigging out' to recover from the
micronutrient depletion.
the tie-in with cancer (within the working hypothesis) is that the
micronutrients are necessary in one or more 'phases' of normal cell replication
and/or metabolic function, so the absence of normal concentrations of the
micronutrients predisposes an organism to malignancy.
i've hashed this out pretty-well over the years, during snippets of 'time' away
from my other work, and know that it's solid.
when i read the review of _Microbes and Malignancy_ in _Science_, (by D. Ganem,
p1279), it became clear to me that this micronutrient hypothesis has strong
correaltions with respect to the stuff that's the subject of the book, and
since i knew that i'd soon be in deeper-'exile' with respect to my other work,
decided that this'd be a good problem to work on next.
what'll be new (to me) in the reading i plan is that i'll be looking for
correlates of the same sort of micronutrient depletion with respect to
infectuous agents. i strongly-expect that it'll be a 'mother-lode' thing (which
i say, here, in order to encourage others who are better-eqipped than i am to
do this needed work wiithout unnecessary 'delay').
anyway, perhaps it'd be appropriate for me to take myself to some 'alt.' NG
now.
i don't want bionet.neuroscience to have to bear anything that should be
targeted solely at me.
problem is, i don't want to 'hide', either.
if folks don't mind, and if they can remain-separate from any 'heat' that comes
to me because i chose to act, i'd just as soon stay on in this 'place' because
folks already have necessary background that'd only have to be rehashed in
another 'place'.
if they feel a need to, folks should free to express themselves.
ken (K. P. Collins)
